Our relation by marriage the Australian novelist Mary Grant Bruce (1878–1958) was the second daughter
and fourth child of Eyre Lewis Bruce of Miegunyah, Traralgon, and Mary (Minnie)
Atkinson, the daughter in turn of William and Louisa Whittakers, Welsh pioneers
of the Monaro district of New South Wales. Mr. Bruce was a surveyor who
migrated to Victoria from Co. Cork in 1854; settled near Sale in East Gippsland
ten years later, and surveyed Bruce Road, his only monument, which still skirts
the Colquhuon State Forest, commencing at a point on the Princes’ Highway that
is roughly half way between Swan Reach and Kalimna West, and leads most of the
way north to the neighborhood of Tambo Upper.
The Bruces of East
Gippsland were closely bound by marriage my mother’s Borthwick, Pearson, and Gooch families. Two of my great-grandmother [Emily]
Sophie Pearson’s younger Gooch siblings of The Fulham near Sale each married a
different one of Mary Grant Bruce’s: Frank Gooch married Emily Bruce, while
Sophie and Frank’s adored youngest sister Mollie married Maxwell Bruce (Max). Much
earlier, in the 1880s, Sophie Pearson’s sister Kate Gooch married William
Pearson’s brother Jack, and by this neat and not particularly unusual Victorian
stratagem the children of all three families were provided with many cousins, a
deep devotion to each other, and a powerful attachment to the region of East
Gippsland where they all grew up.
In 1914, Mary Grant Bruce married her distant Anglo-Irish cousin,
Major George Evans Bruce, to whom in London she introduced the whole Pearson
family.
Beyond these immediate family connections, like the Pearsons, the
Bruces were lifelong friends and neighbors of the Borthwick family of Sale and
nearby Bald Hills, and shortly after the end of World War I, the Pearsons’
eldest daughter Helen, my grandmother, married William Borthwick. Throughout
the extended periods they spent living abroad, George and Mary Grant Bruce
corresponded with great-grandmother Ada Borthwick and her daughters, my
grandfather’s sisters Jean and Kathleen Borthwick. During the bleak period of
crisis that followed the death in a shooting accident in Northern Ireland of
the Bruces’ younger son Patrick (Pat), Mary’s affectionate correspondence with
Mrs. Borthwick turned more and more toward breathing exercises, thought-power,
table-rapping, and spiritualism. The letters, several of them immensely long, are interesting for many reasons, but mainly because they shed such penetrating beams of light on
the tight-knit Gippsland circle from which so much of the granular detail of
the Billabong novels was liberally harvested.
The original correspondence will in due course go, together with the rest of the Trumble family papers, to the National Library of Australia in Canberra. But in the meantime here are transcriptions of the six long letters from Mary Grant Bruce:
I. Mary Grant
Bruce to Ada Borthwick. The sorrow piled on sorrow to which Bruce refers were the death on active duty of two of Ada and William Borthwick’s five sons, John Malcolm at Aden in 1908, and Keith in the Battle of the Nek at Gallipoli in 1915.
Drumcrinna,
Omagh
Co. Tyrone
N. Ireland
November 30th
/29
My dear old
friend,
I
knew I should hear from you quickly. You have long been my standard of courage
under a blow—and even at first, when we were crushed under our agony, I kept
remembering you and thinking how gallantly you had always kept up your head,
with sorrow piled on sorrow. Having known your courage helps me to carry on, as
we must do, for Jon—and because Pat would so hate us to be unhappy. His love
was so wonderful—a baby’s, even with his twelve years, and yet not like a
child’s in the way he tried to care for me and shield me. He couldn’t bear me
to be tired or worried. I keep remembering how he would take off my shoes and
put on my slippers, and kiss each foot as he did it, my little loving son—the
brain of a man in many ways, but always the loving heart of a baby. It doesn’t
seem possible that he is gone.
You
will have heard about it from Max or Janie. Thank God, there was no suffering
for him—his dear face was quite peaceful. Just “I’m sorry”—and he knew we were
doing all we could, and looked at us with such love—and then went to sleep with
his cheek against mine like a tired baby. It might have been so infinitely more
cruel for him. For us there are memories that can never lose their horror, but
thank God, they were ours alone—and the great mercy was that Jon was away. He
is so brave and steady—carrying on well at school and doing his very best for
us. His housemaster wrote, “His quiet, manly courage, his complete thought for
you and his mother, have won all our admiration and respect.” But it is so hard
for him, for their mutual love was a beautiful thing. They were so unlike, but
each thought the other the most wonderful boy in the world. Did anyone tell you
how the shock was eased for Jon? We were sick with anxiety for its effect on
him, knowing he must hear it from strangers—he is in his first term at Repton, in
Derbyshire. But on the two nights before the accident he dreamed that
Pat was dead. He said, “I kept thinking of it, and it was like a cloud over me,
and when Mr. Hooton sent for me I knew what he was going to say.”
I
know all is well with my darling. I never think of him “at rest”—I believe that
he has gone on to work, the work for which his splendid brain and beautiful
spirit were made. Do you know Kingsley’s words—“The best reward for having
wrought well on earth is to have more to do; and he that has been faithful over
a few things, he shall find his reward in being made ruler over many things. That
is the true and heroical rest, which only is worthy of gentlemen and sons of
God.” [Charles Kingsley, Westward Ho!
Or, The Voyages and Adventures of Sir Amyas Leigh, Knight… (Cambridge:
Macmillan, 1855), p. 213.] I believe they don’t go so very far—that they work
up from plane to plane until they are worthy to stand in His Presence. And
there are so many who have crossed over who would love him and guide his little
feet—he won’t be lonely.
But
the loneliness without him! He had been at home 2½ months, because he had had
appendicitis—and his happiness, his joy of being alive, were beyond expression.
I never knew anyone who played the fool so divinely—I think we laughed all the
time. It was like having the spirit of sunshine in the house. And I was still
shivering with thankfulness at having got him safely through the operation, and
each hour was precious to me, from the moment he came dashing in to my bed in
the morning until I tucked him up at night. Well, I have my memories—and I
shall have my baby always in my heart.
I
loved the poem you sent, and will keep it always: it must be doubly precious to
you in your dear boy’s writing. I wonder if they have rest. The Spiritualists
believe that the young soldiers act as Guides to help the new spirits who go
over and I think it a lovely thing to feel.
My
best love to you, dear old friend.
Yours ever affectionately,
M. G. Bruce
II. Mary Grant
Bruce to Ada Borthwick
Robinswood
Dorset Road
Bexhill-on-Sea
Sussex
28th Oct. /33.
Dearest Mrs.
Borthwick,
It
isn’t often I get the chance of answering a letter “all hot from the oven”—but
your lovely letter have just come in on a cold grey evening, and it—and your
flowers—brought Australia so vividly to me that I just cast everything I ought
to be doing to the winds, and here goes. The flowers were wonderfully fresh.
The heath, flat as flat, but perfectly coloured, looks as though it were
painted on a sheet of paper. It was lovely to hear from you—every bit of the
news of old Sale friends so good to hear. Give my love to them all—and when you
see Winnie, tell her I’d love a letter. I am so glad she is still with the
Baileys. Torchie [Gooch] was with us for 3 weeks—a fine boy—He and Jon
twin-souled completely—scurried all over the country on bicycles and made
Robinswood a gay place. I loved having him—and he understood my
Gippsland-hunger and let himself be pumped about everyone and everything. He is
now in the North, in a wee car—spent a Sunday with Jon at Repton, and means to
go to see him again. He sails on Nov. 11th. I’m afraid I won’t see
him again. George spent a day with him in London, showing him “sights.” My Jon
is large and very strong. 5 ft. 10 in bare feet, with a mighty chest—nothing
left of the delicate little lad he used to be, thank God. And the very best of
loving sons. Everyone seems to like him—he has such a kind heart. We are great
mates. He is to go to one of the big Agricultural Colleges next year—is now in
his last year at Repton—was lately given a House Exhibition of £25, given not
for scholarship but for character and good influence. He has a strong turn for
science, and I hope he will develop that at the Agric.l College; where the
scientific side is very strong. George and I are always well, in fact, people
say we grow younger. We are hard hit financially, like most people, but it
doesn’t trouble us and I never regret that Jon has to grow up knowing that
money isn’t necessary for happiness. We are all very interested in the modern
study of thought-power, and apply it to all our daily life, including the
control of our bodies—and we have now no ailments. We used to have so
many, but in the last 3½ years have had only one apiece—a slight cold. We deep
breathe regularly, with thought: thinking we take in strength, hold it
into our whole being, and expel weakness: it has an amazing effect in producing
the sound body and the happy mind.
It’s
most interesting to be alive now, and to see all these mental developments
growing—everywhere people are studying psychology, healing by mental methods,
using the creative power of thought in all matters. They say the “Age of Mind” is
opening, and certainly youth is thinking as it never thought before. Christian
Science always had a lot of this truth, though, I think, overlaid with too much
Mary Baker Eddy! I don’t hold with them that pain and illness don’t exist, but
I know they can be largely avoided by thought: and the more one dwells
on good, the more good comes to one. Which Paul expressed in “Finally,
brethren, whatsoever things are good, whatsoever things are lovely…of good
report…if there be any virtue, if there be any praise, THINK ON THESE
THINGS.” [Philippians 4:8.]
It
was queer—if such things are queer—that I had been thinking of you a
great deal lately. But that so often happens—one thinks strongly of a person,
and then one meets them, or have a letter. We’re all wireless-sets. Mother and
I used to exchange thought constantly—and I think—I know—we do so still.
She and Father often seem so near, especially when I need a bit of extra help
over anything. As for Pat—well, his nearness is often a very real thing. I
don’t see any reason why it should not be. We know there are “messengers given
charge concerning us, to keep us in all our ways” [Luke 4: 10.]—and why should
they not be those who love us best?
A
few months after Pat went I met in London a delightful elderly Scotswoman; we
met at the Club, introduced by a mutual acquaintance who knew very little about
me. We liked each other, she found that I was keen on old houses, and asked me
to come and see hers in Chelsea. I went, and as we were sitting talking after tea,
I noticed that her eyes strayed past me several times. Presently she said,
“Mrs. Bruce, I hope you won’t mind if I say something—I’m like many
Highlanders, I have “the sight,” and so had my mother before me—and I see
someone so plainly near you that I feel I must tell you.” I said “Yes?”
very bewildered. “He has been standing very near you for some minutes—a boy
about 12, with such a rosy, happy face, and a sweep of golden hair across a
splendid brow”—and she went on to describe Pat minutely, every detail correct.
“He’s so happy that I see him, and you know—he is putting his arm round your
shoulders and smiling at you in such a protective way.”
There
are so many who have similar experiences. This was especially striking, as she
knew nothing about me and my loss—I have never worn mourning, which we all
detest, and our meeting and our talk had been quite impersonal. It gave me a
comfort I cannot explain—something of “the Peace that passeth all
understanding.” [Philippians 4:7.] I knew Pat was there, with a deep, inner
knowing—knew he was alive and busy and working somewhere “about his Father’s
business,” [Luke 2:49] but “still living, still loving, still mine”—able to be
near his dearests sometimes,--perhaps as a part of that “business.” I have
never lost the feeling: it grows and deepens. I know he’s not with me always—I
wouldn’t want to hold him there, and keep him from his job. But sometimes I
have a sudden wave of knowledge that he is beside me—as if I could almost touch
him: and always there comes that great wave of happiness. We keep with him step
by step in that otherwhere—we’ve just kept his 16th birthday
happily. As for thinking of him as “dead,” that seems to us merely silly!
There
is a tremendous drive of interest in the future life and the matter of
survival. Wherever you go you hear it talked about. In this age of empty churches
the one thing that will fill a church to the doors is the announcement of a
sermon on the future life; and psychic investigation on scientific and
religious lines is spreading by leaps and bounds. One development that is very
marked is the spread of spiritual healing, due to the Spiritualist bodies—there
is scarcely a little town in England that is without its “healing circle,” and
in every private asylum there are Spiritualists “casting out devils,” and
restoring people just as the Master did. There is, of course, a fearful lot
that is cheap and fraudulent about so-called Spiritualism, but there is also a
steadily growing side that claims to have received teaching from the Other Side
that has made life a new thing—and these people are living a life of love and
service because of it. One constantly hears sermons on the wireless about it,
and in London there is a body of clergymen, over 200 strong, who are steadily
investigation psychic matters. Some of the most prominent Presbyterian divines
have openly declared their belief in psychic “communications.” This tremendous
“drive,” which has steadily increased since the first year of the War, makes
one think. I had a complete scorn for the whole thing four years ago. But now I
wonder if the strength of this wave of pressure from the Other Side is not a
counter-blast to another wave almost as strong—the denial of God. Look at it in
Russia: look at it wherever the Communist element is strong. It isn’t only in
the Communist “Sunday schools,” where children are deliberately taught to jeer
at God: it is in the educated classes, led by such men as Julius Huxley [sic] and
Bernard Shaw. A professor at the London University put two questions 2 years
ago to a class of about 30 undergraduates: 1. “Do you believe in the existence
of God?” With about 4 exceptions the answer was a flat “No.” Last year there
was a series of Sunday talks on “The Future Life” by well-known men—they say
never was a series more keenly listened to, more provocative of letters on both
sides. There were 12 talks, and 6 of the speakers argued brilliantly against
any existence after death. It is the same in the schools: Jon says many fellows
at Repton, fine fellows too, have no belief in God or a future. The Churches
cannot hold the young. And the young are “seeking”: the wave of riot and
indiscipline that followed the War is being succeeded by a desire for something
fine to hold to. They are getting together in groups, talking things out. The Oxford
Group movement is a sign of the times: apart from it there are innumerable
“Conferences of Youth” meeting to discuss problems of life and mind. Jon went
to one in the holidays—70 or 80 young people, from 17–30, who spent a week-end
discussing modern problems. A boy of 18 couldn’t have done that in my youth
without being thought “queer,” but no one would apply that epithet to our large
and merry Jon. It’s normal now.
Well,
I’ve run along—somehow felt you’d be interested in the things that are interesting
us. Life is very full—one curious result of believing as we do about mind-power
and thought-control is that people are always coming to talk—many of them in
trouble. It makes one happy, feeling that one is used as a channel, but one’s
days disappear in a disconcerting fashion! However, it is one form of being “on
service,” and I believe that’s the only thing that matters.
What
a lot you’ve always given, in affection and happy outlook—and in laughter,
which is one of the best forces in life. Do you know what I was thinking of the
day before your letter came? Do you remember coming to see Mother when she was
ill and we’d put her for coolness in father’s little room? You’d said good-bye,
but you suddenly turned from the front door and ran back to her, and said “I
just had to come back and pull your pigtail!” If you knew how many laughs that
gave her—bless you! Other people used to look like [scowling face] and ask
about her symptoms.
Write again some
time—I do love to hear. My love to you and all the dear old friends. How I
would love a yarn to you.
Yours
ever affectionately,
M. G. Bruce
III. Mary Grant
Bruce to Ada Borthwick
Robinswood
22nd Sept. 1935
Dearest Mrs.
Borthwick,
You
know without my telling you how sorry I was to hear from Jean of your illness—and
if I were a free agent I’d be in London tomorrow to see you and the girls: but
I’m a duck with one wing at the moment, having lately had a minor operation,
about which Jean will tell you, and my stitches don’t come out until tomorrow.
It’s nothing to worry about, but it will tie me here for a bit.
But
being 70 miles from you is not a bar to thought, and in that way I am near you
now, and will keep near. For years we have studied the power of thought,
steadily held, to help in illness; and we know how real it is. The Guild of
Healing to which we belong, works altogether by mental means, thought and
prayer, for cases sent to it, and the cures that I could tell you about are
more like miracles than anything else. We look on thought as a kind of wireless,
and we know that where there is love and sympathy and faith that wireless goes
straight to its object. I feel that you can believe this—anyhow just because
you know I love you, will you try to remember that especially twice a day at
7.30 a.m. and 9.30 p.m. I am thinking steadily at you?—picturing you happy and
peaceful, with rays of vitality and health pouring into you, building up new
health and harmony in all your being—and will you relax and feel receptive?
Of
course one is “nothing of oneself.” We just believe in the Master as the Great
Healer, just as keen to give people health as He was when He walked in Galilee:
we believe that those we have loved, who have gone ahead, are working for Him
in that purpose, relaying, as it were, His wireless rays to those who suffer:
and we believe that anyone on earth can join in that purpose and be channels
for His healing. It doesn’t for a moment supersede the work of doctors and
nurses, but it does help to make an atmosphere that aids all their work.
It
isn’t for us to say precisely what “healing” is. The healing of the Master is from
within, and it manifests as He directs—often in complete bodily recovery,
or perhaps in the deepest healing of all—absolutely peace of soul. But the
Blessing never fails if only one opens oneself to receive it. One patient said
to me—“I just had the feeling that the Everlasting Arms were holding me fast.”
I
haven’t the slightest doubt that all our “dearests” who have gone over are
working round you now. I must tell you a little story of my operation last
week. After it was over, the sister who had been present as chatting to me in
the evening, and asked me “Who is Pat?” “Pat is my son,” I said. “Why?” “Well,
when you were unconscious you began to wriggle—and then you said happily, ‘Pat
says, “Lie still, Mother,”—Pat says “Lie quite still, Mother—it’s all
right—you’re going to be quite well.”’ And you did lie still!” finished
sister.
So
I picture you, with all your dear ones looking after you, those you can see and
those you can’t—and there are no “visiting hours” for the ones you can’t
see—they’re there all the time, “messengers Given charge concerning thee, to
keep thee in all thy ways.” [Psalm 91: 11, cfr. Matthew 4: 6.]
My best love,
and I’ll be looking out for very good reports of you.
With
strongest thoughts.
Yours lovingly,
Minnie G. Bruce
IV. Mary Grant
Bruce to Jean Borthwick
Robinswood
Dorset Road
Bexhill-on-Sea
24th Sept. ’35.
My dear Jean,
I
was so glad to hear that your mother was going on well—her message was just
her, wasn’t it? I was very interested to hear what the Doctor said of the
blood-vessels expanding to carry the extra supply, because I’ve known other
instances of what they call “compensating adjustments” developing to relieve
heart trouble. My father had a weak heart all his life, and we never knew when
an attack of palpitation would come. Certainly his doctor thought one would
carry him off. But he lived to be 90, and in the last 10 years the heart
strengthened, and was wonderfully strong in his last illness—a stroke. With
what I know now I believe it was largely due to his serenity of mind: he took
care—after 75!—but he declined to worry. And his last few years were wonderful,
for his mind was so clear and young.
My
husband’s heart was weak for years—he was not allowed to go to the Front in the
War, and always had to be very careful. Five years ago, when we were both in
the mud, mentally and physically, we were put on to a system of breathing with
the use of thought, and though we hadn’t the least faith in it—it seemed to us
so visionary, and we’re very practical people—we promised to try it for 3
months. The results fairly amazed us. We lost every ailment we had, and they
were many—even in my case, frequent acute lumbago. In 5 years we’ve each had 2
slight colds—we used to have colds and ’flu all the winter. Our minds toned up
with our bodies, and we came back from the depths to be happy, normal, and
stronger than we had been for twenty years.
Once
you get interested in this sort of thing it is a queer fact that all sorts of
side-lights seem to be led to you about it. One in our case was a course of
lectures on practical psychology. We learned a lot from it: the lecturer was
very keen on thought used constructively. He said that all the body responded
to thought, but that three organs were especially susceptible to it—the eyes,
the ears, and the heart. So my husband and I treated his heart steadily, just
thinking strength into it. I don’t mean that we made a ceremony of it: he made
it part of his breathing exercises, and I thought at him quietly alone. It
helps very much in mental treatment to make a mental picture of the person you
want to help, for one’s mental pictures have real power—so real that nowadays
we literally do not dare to picture anything that includes fear. When I
treat a case, I “see” him, happy, strong, well, bathed in light, and that light
signifies to me the supply of all his special need. One can’t, oneself, know
all his need, because one is finite: but if that light can represent to you the
Infinite Love, help can’t fail.
There
are not always cures, as man counts cures—though there are many. But whenever
one talks to people engaged in mental healing one hears of amazing cases where
pain goes. I know of one, a man with very advanced cancer of throat, in ghastly
pain and fear: and under mental healing every bit of pain and fear went. He
lived on for 6 weeks, in perfect serenity, and his passing was a triumph.
I
don’t often use the term “faith-healing,” for it puts off people who can’t feel
faith. I had very little myself. But if one can get people to try—just for an
experiment—so often results come; and then faith takes care of itself. One
can’t whip up faith to order, but one can take a chance to help—and I don’t
think God bothers about one’s beliefs or lack of them, so long as one is trying
to help. And when a result comes that is beyond any earthly explaining—well,
one just knows that it is God, and one realizes that God needs human channels
to work with. So we just go on holding our little pictures of people bathed in
light, and when we finish we give thanks—before we see any result. That’s
important.
And
then one mustn’t spoil it by worrying. It was very hard for me to realise this,
being a born worrier: harder still to practice. Then I was taught the power of
affirmative prayer—the prayer that not only asks, but takes. The 23rd
Psalm is a supreme example—“The Lord is my shepherd, therefore I lack
nothing,” and the power of that Psalm, especially when said aloud, is most
remarkable. Any affirmation for God has power. I have my own, for any matter
that tries to worry me: whenever a worry-thought comes I say “God’s looking
after that—it’s all right.” It’s beyond any explaining, how it can turn aside
worry—even material difficulties seem to melt. It seems to me that it is like
linking-up with some reservoir of power.
We
“sit under” a very fine Presbyterian minister here who said something once that
is worth thinking over in this connection—“Most of us pray wrongly—we’re so
busy clasping hands in prayer that we omit to open them to receive.” And we
have grown to believe that the prayer that merely asks isn’t much good: we’ve
got to do something ourselves, to get busy about taking. It fits in, doesn’t
it, with, “Whatsoever ye ask, believing that ye have received—” [Mark 11: 24.]
It
doesn’t mean living on a high plane. This is as jolly and ordinary a home as
you can see, full of laughter. Only we have learned a few things about
practical working, and no other religion is any good to me—I’ve got to see
practical results. We are only stumblers on the way, always learning, always
making mistakes. But we do get results that make the learning worthwhile: if I
can pass onto you and Kathleen a few thoughts that may help you in a difficult
time, then I’m paying a bit of the debt I owe for all I’ve been given in the
way of help. We don’t limit our system to illness: it works over all the
practical happenings of every day. It works extraordinarily over smoothing
journeys: we’ve had experiences of travel being smoothed away that have made us
gasp, they’re so strange. Try it when you think you’re going to miss a train,
when things go wrong—“God’s looking after this—it’s all right.” And it will be.
Don’t
be put off by a faith-healer who has to charge a fee. After all, he has to pay
rent and food-bills, and if he doesn’t make a charge he might be quite unable
to give his time. One has to look at the thing practically. I know a woman who
had the power of being a channel very strongly. She declined to take any fees,
believing it to be wrong. She was very poor, a widow whose two sons had been
killed in the War, and she earned her living by teaching music, going here and
there to pupils, taking healing cases at every moment when she could fit them
in, often until midnight. Her friends begged her to drop teaching and charge
healing fees, but she wouldn’t: and she was wearing herself out. Then it really
seemed that God took a hand and said “my channel shall not be wasted,” for by a
succession of coincidences all her pupils fell away, leaving her with none, until
she was forced to charge a small fee for patients. Today she is doing wonderful
work, keeping all her energy and time for the healing. She still hates taking
fees, but she has learned that it isn’t sense to waste her gift.
Some
people have the gift strongly through touch. I believe most people are healers,
more or less: and the gift can always be developed. The laying-on of hands may
be used by anyone: I have known the pain of a double-dislocation relieved by a woman
who had never tried anything of the kind before, but, wrung by the sight of the
girl’s agony, obeyed a sudden impulse to stroke her gently, with a desperate
prayer to be made a channel. It was four hours before the doctor came, and all
that time the girl was out of pain as long as the hands kept on her—if the
“channel” moved away for a moment the pain returned in full force. None of us
know how we may be used, until we try.
I
hope all this hasn’t bored you—you needn’t answer it! I got interested in the
method of our treatment in telling you about my husband’s heart, and didn’t
tell you the result. The result is that there now seems nothing wrong with it!
Last year we three went for a 3-weeks’ cycling tour in Devon and Cornwall,
doing hundreds of miles in that hilly country, and nothing tried him. This
summer he went to Wales for 3 weeks, walking 12–20 miles a day in the mountains
and came home looking like a boy. He is 68. Whereas he used to cherish colds
all the winter, he now seems immune to either colds or winter flu. Last winter
he went about in flannels. I wore an overcoat exactly three times. I submit
that if only on the score of economy this result is worth attaining! And it is
entirely due to the “Healing and Strength” system we were given 5 years ago.
I’ll put in a copy.
The
length of this letter will show you it doesn’t hurt me to write—my wound is
just west of the armpit, and my forearm is quite available for duty. I am much
gayer now that the stitches are out—for a few days I must take things easily,
but I’ll soon be well.
Please
keep on feeling very hopeful—don’t let yourself say that you’re afraid of
anything: that’s an affirmation that is too risky to use. I seem to have cast
most of my burden of fears, but there’s one thing I’m afraid to say, and that
is—“I’m afraid!”
Much
love to you both, and my strongest thoughts.
Yours affectionately,
M. G. Bruce
V. Mary Grant
Bruce to Jean Borthwick
Robinswood
Dorset Road
Bexhill-on-Sea
24th Oct. ’35.
My dear Jean,
I
was so sorry not have a glimpse of you and Kathleen yesterday, so am writing to
wish you both a happy and peaceful voyage. It was lovely to see your dear
little Mother, and she was so bright and happy. I hope my visit did not tire
her. It seems such a good plan that you have changed cabins, if only for the
possibility of keeping a port-hole open and my experience is that a ship doctor
gives far more attention to a class in the 1st class.
You
say I was a tow-rope. I wasn’t: I only showed you a tow-rope. It is there all
the time, if you will grip it. Don’t let your minds dwell on difficulties,
either present or possible—cast your burden by affirming the Power that can
deal with any difficulty. Our affirmation—“God’s looking after it—it’s
all right”—is the best tow-rope I know. It has pulled us out of many a bad
hole. It is just an affirmative prayer, and that is the most powerful form of
prayer.
It
seems to me that in the mysterious form of “wireless” that prayer works we have
to make an active connection that establishes the full electric circuit. I’m
not scientific, but I compare it with getting light into a room. We don’t know
what electricity is; we only know that it is a force man can use if he turns on
a switch. If he only looks at the switch, and prays “let light come,” he has
not connected up fully. But if he makes an active connection, pulling down the
switch, he has affirmed faith in it—and he gets light. Our affirmative
prayer—like the 23rd Psalm, which is our splendid affirmation—is the
pulling down of the switch.
I
know that if you practice it regularly you will feel worry drop from you and
feel that strength has been given you to face any emergency. You will “lift up
your hearts”: and the mental sympathy that is so strong between mother and
children will enable your mother to sense that confidence and serenity in you,
and it will react upon her in every way.
Will
you send me a p.c. from some of the ports to say how the journey goes? I’ll be
thinking of you all every day, and knowing that “God’s looking after you—you’re
all right.”
Love
to you both, and “bon voyage.”
Yours affectionately,
Mary Grant Bruce
VI. Mary Grant
Bruce to Jean Borthwick and Kathleen Borthwick
Sunningdale
Dorset Road
Croydon
19th Nov. ’39
My dear Kathleen
and Jean,
It
was not until I came back to Victoria lately that I heard that your dear mother
had gone to find those waiting for her on the Other Side—and what a reunion
that must have been! But to you two, whose companionship made her life here
beautiful to the end, there must be great loneliness. And George and I send you
all our sympathy. I am sure you would not have wished her to stay, once she
grew too tired, but the daily blank is hard to bear at first. I have found it
only lessens when one can concentrate thought on the one who has gone
ahead—picturing that new life, blessing daily the one we love in new joys and
service. I am so very sure they never go beyond the reach of our love and our
blessings.
I
can think of very few people who so consistently gave love and received it as
your mother. She is my very oldest friend: always an example of what could be,
and of “gallant and high-hearted happiness.” [cfr. “Grant to us, O Lord, the
royalty of inward happiness, and the serenity which comes from living close to
thee. Daily renew in us the sense of joy, and let the eternal spirit of the
Father dwell in our souls and bodies, filling every corner of our hearts with
light and grace; so that, bearing about with us the infection of good courage,
we may be diffusers of life, and may meet all ills and cross accidents with
gallant and high-hearted happiness, giving thee thanks always for all things.”
Robert Louis Stevenson.] I don’t suppose she ever guessed how much she helped
other people—but she had only to be her dear self to do that.
With
much love.
Your affectionate friend
Mary Grant Bruce